This feeling I get.

I like you. A lot a lot.

But I can't seem to open up fully with you just yet.

Because I am afraid, history will repeat itself.

Afraid that my heart will crack under your influence.

But I keep telling myself you could be different.

So, here I am struggling to let you in.

Trying to let you in.

and you are, slowly.

and I like that :)

I'm glad we're taking things slow.

There's no need to rush.

I'm here and will always be.

and when you're ready,

hopefully I'll be too:)

"We are not together but no one else is allowed to date you, okay?"

:B

2011 Memories Gone right?

On this last day of 2011, I would like to, express a whole year of emotion/anger/hatred/love/admiration/loathe/*insert emotional whatever here* in one sexy blog entry.

New Years Resolution. I tend to keep them, realistic.

To tolerate annoying people with such poise.

To stop eating spicy food for my ear.

To be patient with technology.

To be patient with people who is slow with technology.

To always back my files up.

To not think too much like a crazy bastard.

To be more sarcastic.

To just do it and not think.

To express admiration more openly towards the opposite sex and to have FINALLY MOVE ON.

2011 Memories GONE WRONG

Not bringing enough Adabi seasoning to Thailand during our measured drawing trip.

Getting 2nd place for Terang Architectural Workshop when we should have won :B

Killing the macbook and papa's macbook.

Leaving the car keys in the car overnight.

Spending so much in Thailand and not knowing what I bought, really.

Not having enough Holidays since the day I started Architecture.

NOT BEING ABLE TO PRESENT FOR STUDIO FINALS

FINDING OUT ABOUT MY EAR NERVE PROBLEMS

Not telling you how I really felt and now losing you sucks.

“New Year’s resolutions are like opinions, they both tend to make you look like an asshole.”

HELLO 2012 PLEASE BE NICE :B

me gusta.

I missed my studio final presentation due to health reasons.

I am so depressed but I believe god has better plans for me.

and hey you.

sooner or later people will know about us.

how you are sitting on the palms of my hands.

the truth is, I don't know how to grab you.

because,

____________.

be a man. please.

I can't just lose another one.

penat lah.

and I miss your good morning's and good night's.

:)

hmm.

Archiweek

This happened 2 months ago

and I just uploaded the photos on Facebook.

Lazy ass

:3

"too many people spend money they haven't earned,

to buy things they don't want,

to impress people they don't like"

-will smith.

#2

I think a lot.

I do a lot of ridiculous thinking daily.

I don't plan them, it just happen. On the most bizzare places and occasions ever.

toilet breaks, lift rides, queueing at the counter, walking without a purpose, between a conversation with someone, while washing dishes...etc etc

I would stare blankly in space with the most hideous facial expression ever trying to make sense what my brain was thinking because these thoughts they flash in my head like Ferraris on a sexy day and I need to grasp the sound they're making and try to link them together so that it all makes a beautiful line of traffic Ferrari jam at the end and how an ugly cooper came into the picture, I do not know.

get it?

See that! That's me thinking and typing simultaneously (WOW NO SHIT- no what I meant was that staring blankly and thinking and typing LOL) but manage to stop because it was getting ridiculous. and if I could write an essay about what I was thinking for just about a minute,

it could go on, about 3 pages of an a4, times new roman, size 12.

Yes. I thought about that too.

God help me.